sorry if this is boring, but it's on my mind. I'll put the football stuff in a seperate post. hehe.
so those of my readers who know me well will know that one of the things that I do least well is manage to stay single.
since my first ever boyfriend, aged 15, there has been a more or less constant stream of people. It goes a bit like this:
T (Feb '95 - Sept '96)
T2 (Oct '96 - May '97)
J (May '97 - Oct '97)
M (Oct '97 - Dec '01)
B (Dec '01- Feb '02)
J2 (Mar '02 - Jul '03)
M2 (Jul '03 - May '06)
apart from the rather limited range of initials which my partners seem to have had, from this exercise it also results that my longest period of being properly single before this year is, um, maybe a month, two at most? though I would say that only the gentleman labelled M, J2 and M2 count as really serious.
so it's all a bit new. specifically, the not immediately plunging into a new relationship thing is a bit new. it's probably very good for me but I feel like a small child not wanting its medicine because I'm not sure I like it. a lot of the things I thought I was sure about, about myself, I'm suddenly not so sure about. since so much of my character & self-image has been constructed whilst in serious relationships this shouldn't be surprising to me, but it is. I'm perhaps not as resilient as I've always thought, and it's made me realise that I've perhaps been complacent and lazy in my relationships in the past, rather shamingly. ho hum.